Rachigga was amazing (yeah, you read that right). She held up through labor and delivery like a pro. I am so incredibly proud of her. My last baby had her first baby. Remarkable.
Now, I need a name for this little bundle of preciousness. Let's see...I have Z-man and Flower...Beautiful...Bright Eyes and New York...this little joy is such a tiny little...peanut. My little peanut.
I feel like I need to be writing something...profound here. And this is what I have: when I look at her, I am in awe. Like I have been waiting for her for such a long time. I love all my grandbabies. All of them. They are all unique and precious to me. They all hold some special something within me. And this little Peanut is no different. And yet, she is. Oh, maybe they ALL are. Maybe because it's my last child experiencing a final first in life...there are no more "firsts"...at least not for a long time. Rachigga's pregnancy...her labor...her delivery...the first time she nursed...I am flooded with my own memories of those "firsts" in my own life. Somehow, I miss it. I wonder how in the world did I come to this point in my life? How did I "survive"?
Words for another day...for now...I cherish each and every waking and sleeping moment I spend with Peanut; because soon I will get to hear the word that tugs at my heart whenever any of those babies say it..."Oma".
4 comments:
yummy.
you made me cry! Melancholy is the word I would put here. Sometimes that must happen when life changes occur. Makes us think, feel and experience all that we went through to get where we are today. Mixed in is all that JOY! Sometimes all that joy is just hard to swallow, strange isn't it. That and the season change, you usually go through a bit of melancholy Jo during season changes. Never fear, this feeling will pass, but the memories will always be there to reach for and take out whenever you need them.
I love you sis. Oh, and I am way to lazy to sign in, soooooooo Love ya, Lori
Thanks...both of you! :~) And to make it even MORE yummy...Chief decided that because Knight-in shining-armor calls her Peanut, HE is going to call her HAZELnut. So THAT is going to be her new name...Hazelnut.
And...yeah...melancholy is my middle name for sure! At least today it is!
laughs, hazelnut? At least he isn't calling her filbert! hahahaha Love ya, BTW, I am TRYING to make that doc appt and their phone isn't working! grrrrrr oh again, too lazy to sign in, so guess who?
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